The Corporation for Public Broadcasting is shutting down, and with it PBS and NPR. Lack of funding.

I’m horrifyingly depressed, but I guess my “It may be over for me” line wasn’t true.

Corrupt or fall. That’s the mandate for the arts from the fascists.

My mandate for the fascists is fuck yourself. Which means I can’t give up, and I’m not done. I don’t get the easy out of “everyone wants to be an artist, no one wants me, so the arts will be taken care of without me.”

Nope. No they won’t. The only people who keep the arts going will be the artists who already know how to starve.

I know that it has been instilled in artists that they should be discovered–that they need to be chosen. I guess everybody feels that way. That’s what “making it” is supposed to be–being anointed as someone with a license to make art.

We are now well past that. Who gets “chosen” or funded under fascism? We give ourselves the authority to act, or no one acts.

Not a pot to piss in. Literally. No walls. Literally.

And who cares? Literally. That doesn’t change what needs doing.

So SmutMag continues. And I can’t promise you I’ll be cute about it. And I can’t promise it will always be online. But it goes on. Through thick…and way too thin.

This is a war, ya dig?

Sometimes I’ll yell at you and say you aren’t doing enough. Sometimes I’ll seem entitled. You won’t always like me. I’ve got that dreaded artistic temperament.

So if you’re here just to watch me fail, well sorry. You’ll have to settle for watching me twist in the wind.

Everything in me wants to apologize for being melodramatic earlier. But the truth is things are more dire than I telegraph.

I can’t be sorry. I can only be sure. There is no space for anything else.

So I’ll get back on track with a better attitude later when I can. All I can say now is, I want you with me. Because we’re in this together. And I hope you help make this a little easier for me, so I can do as much as I can.

$1500 is the goal.

And fuck those fucking fascists. I will miss PBS so very fucking much.

Bones